четверг, 12 января 2006
everything is over...
new years...holidays,drinking and loud partying
oh how we waited for it, and now its all in the past
time to study and wait for next moment of freedom
new years...holidays,drinking and loud partying
oh how we waited for it, and now its all in the past
time to study and wait for next moment of freedom
воскресенье, 25 декабря 2005
this christmas, althou i dont really celebrate turned out pretty good. i got so much money, chocolate, clothes, new striped stalkings, a digital camera and a makeup kit. thanks to my moms bfriends/friends! :P... everything went my way today, the singing lessons, the food, even frankie coming over and even those* coughs* 4 hours
only thing that ruined the evening a slightest bit is my mom noticing a hickey on my neck. all she said was * ot menia nichego ne skroesh* oh well.. at least this didnt cause her to give me a lecture. or am i yet to receive one?
anyhow, i was going to come over to sofis apartment in the evening but got too lazy and stayed home looking through sis's stuff and chasing her around with the camera. i made her learn how to take pics!
only thing that ruined the evening a slightest bit is my mom noticing a hickey on my neck. all she said was * ot menia nichego ne skroesh* oh well.. at least this didnt cause her to give me a lecture. or am i yet to receive one?
anyhow, i was going to come over to sofis apartment in the evening but got too lazy and stayed home looking through sis's stuff and chasing her around with the camera. i made her learn how to take pics!
суббота, 24 декабря 2005
im going singing tomorrow, early, at 12- i have to be there by 1
sweet dreams world.
sweet dreams world.
one thing i cant do anymore is drink. today i came home in an absolutely normal state but after mom checked my breath and figured that i have been drinking. she said it was vodka, too. i told her that i dont drink vodka and she said that im lying. i actually only had a few sips and some beer. i was really not drunk, maybe just a bit buzzed as some point. at the end i was helping julia recover from her drunkness....
the window at sofis house got broken. i dont know how that will be resolved but hopefully it will be okay.... julia * sigh* is responsible forthis. sasha, one who was sober at the moment was cleaning the mess up, what would u pple do without sober pple? i dunno where this is leading, if sofis parents find out its julias parents who will get in trouble.... i saw this coming.
dimitry was panicing and telling everyone to leave the place, which is of cource impossibe.... then thankfully, everyone calmed down.
i tried to drink as little as possible, i just didnt know that she would literally come up and check my breath. i wasnt allowed to stay for a sleepover either... i dont think thats ever happening again. no more sleepovers. no more drinking, while i live with her. althou on new years its unavoidable because its a holiday, and she said herself, that it is only on the holidays that i am allowed to consume any alcohol. so on new years i will probably drink but i doubt that its happening again for no particular reason.
the party turned out a complete disaster... i dont know whats going on there right now, hope everything is fine. i am surrounded * according to mother*
by alcoholics and sex deprived freaks. could she be any more right?
the window at sofis house got broken. i dont know how that will be resolved but hopefully it will be okay.... julia * sigh* is responsible forthis. sasha, one who was sober at the moment was cleaning the mess up, what would u pple do without sober pple? i dunno where this is leading, if sofis parents find out its julias parents who will get in trouble.... i saw this coming.
dimitry was panicing and telling everyone to leave the place, which is of cource impossibe.... then thankfully, everyone calmed down.
i tried to drink as little as possible, i just didnt know that she would literally come up and check my breath. i wasnt allowed to stay for a sleepover either... i dont think thats ever happening again. no more sleepovers. no more drinking, while i live with her. althou on new years its unavoidable because its a holiday, and she said herself, that it is only on the holidays that i am allowed to consume any alcohol. so on new years i will probably drink but i doubt that its happening again for no particular reason.
the party turned out a complete disaster... i dont know whats going on there right now, hope everything is fine. i am surrounded * according to mother*
by alcoholics and sex deprived freaks. could she be any more right?
понедельник, 19 декабря 2005
why am i the one waking up at 12-1 on the weekends? i wish i could get up at 8 or 9 for once
воскресенье, 18 декабря 2005
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if my dad doesnt find a normal job and gets his lazy ass to help out im going to have no choice but to drop out of high school
this time its not a joke.
wen my mom goes to college that is. she wont have time to work meaning we'll have no money at all.
o well. too bad im not a jap.
this time its not a joke.
wen my mom goes to college that is. she wont have time to work meaning we'll have no money at all.
o well. too bad im not a jap.
пятница, 16 декабря 2005
[B]" dont be upset, its christmas.. you're young- smile" said a stranger in the elevator.
i must have looked really sad.
i dropped creative writing. im a failure
might as well go to vaughn and fail there too
i must have looked really sad.
i dropped creative writing. im a failure
might as well go to vaughn and fail there too
"Она раз так, на меня смотрит, а я на неё и не понимаю. Она плавно кивнула головой, я плавно кивнул ей. Как такое может быть? За 4 дня я её вижу уже дважды! Это не вероятно. Такой случайности быть не может, просто не может."
- typical guy logic. if they see a girl they like more than once a day they think, oh no this must be fate!
- typical guy logic. if they see a girl they like more than once a day they think, oh no this must be fate!
• You can tolerate your in-laws
• Beer goggles -- who said the holidays have to be lonely?
• Why eat your calories when you can drink them?
• You give the best gift...alcohol
• New Year's resolutions seem attainable when you're drunk
• You love everyone...and everyone loves you
• Be the funny guy at the party
• Drinking in winter means staying warm...or at least feeling like you are
• You bring spirit to the occasion, literally
• The holidays go by much quicker
четверг, 15 декабря 2005
heh, so much for staying . back at home doing families isp!! ( whenever i finish this i will be there during lunches)
going to study and finally get things done.
i missed a few days of school this week for schoolwork or sleep.
its either that i go to sleep at 3 or wake up late.
all i need to do now is hand everything in ( on time preferably)
and staying for lunch tomorrow. i think
i missed a few days of school this week for schoolwork or sleep.
its either that i go to sleep at 3 or wake up late.
all i need to do now is hand everything in ( on time preferably)
and staying for lunch tomorrow. i think
среда, 14 декабря 2005
just saw julia, sasha, yaroslav anton and zek out the window. tehyre sooooo loud
went to sashas house to use his computer today ( and got my hw done!! he pretty much did all of it ) but told zek on the way that i went to an internet cafe ... then i was coming back with sasha and my lie was discovered. heheheh..
am finishing stuff now... ill prob stay up a while tolday
i need to find myself a normal guy, i dont think there r any left. id say all of us need to find better guys. these r not worth it
oxana is leaving...why so soon?
went to sashas house to use his computer today ( and got my hw done!! he pretty much did all of it ) but told zek on the way that i went to an internet cafe ... then i was coming back with sasha and my lie was discovered. heheheh..
am finishing stuff now... ill prob stay up a while tolday
i need to find myself a normal guy, i dont think there r any left. id say all of us need to find better guys. these r not worth it
oxana is leaving...why so soon?
вторник, 13 декабря 2005
some people just dont have their brains moving in more than one direction.
its sad.
- never getting soooo drunk again
-Ever.
-kinda grounded cuz of all that rum....w/e its not drugs rite?
she'll get over it
stress assembly didnt help much, i still run around, bite my nails and ask * what did u say * after 5 hrs
понедельник, 12 декабря 2005
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четверг, 08 декабря 2005
go ahead and criticize me all u want. ive learned not to care. i have come to a conclusion that being this age brings the joys of life which i am not to experience later on. everything changes, passes and new things begin to take place, so why not live it while its here?
what is the point of living in this socialized reality having to commit urself to someone u love or dont love? just because the way its suppose to be....thats the way they say it should be... thats the way u should do it and omg oh no u broke the rules....
love. ? that never happens to me, i only loved once and i was in grade 5. so what so... shall i wait another 10 years to find someone i care about? eventually that will happen but why waste ur time feeling this pain, this emotion after breaking up.. when u can just choose not to love?
in the end noone gets hurt
what is the point of living in this socialized reality having to commit urself to someone u love or dont love? just because the way its suppose to be....thats the way they say it should be... thats the way u should do it and omg oh no u broke the rules....
love. ? that never happens to me, i only loved once and i was in grade 5. so what so... shall i wait another 10 years to find someone i care about? eventually that will happen but why waste ur time feeling this pain, this emotion after breaking up.. when u can just choose not to love?
in the end noone gets hurt
среда, 07 декабря 2005
so this is how it is going to be for now julia+serg. and me+zek...oh how hypocritical of me. we sat there staring at each other for a few hours today.. that was alright. that is i mean all of us stared ... and no *stared" isnt a code word for any other word..
zek asked me out but i would never go with him, that would be making the biggest mistake even if i liked him or wanted to use him. no thank you..
also, i am tired of keeping peace between people...i am not a peacekeeper
who needs a relationship these days anyways? guys are being assholes all over the place... everyone is breaking up...
zek asked me out but i would never go with him, that would be making the biggest mistake even if i liked him or wanted to use him. no thank you..
also, i am tired of keeping peace between people...i am not a peacekeeper
who needs a relationship these days anyways? guys are being assholes all over the place... everyone is breaking up...
вторник, 06 декабря 2005
who is using who? that is the q-n.
whose abusing who?- thats another one
whose abusing who?- thats another one
понедельник, 05 декабря 2005
baby,
im crazy.
if not tomorrow
than after tomorrow
ill die.
i dont know what to say or do, u can try walking in my shoes...
no no u cant walk in my shoes right now that is, u dont really wanna be...
tell me, am i easily deceived?
i had enough problems..
here's another one on my shoulders..
im crazy.
if not tomorrow
than after tomorrow
ill die.
i dont know what to say or do, u can try walking in my shoes...
no no u cant walk in my shoes right now that is, u dont really wanna be...
tell me, am i easily deceived?
i had enough problems..
here's another one on my shoulders..